My journal entry from Tuesday night:
"... I'm having great difficulty with surrendering to the Lord the things for which He asks.
So much so that all I do is cry. I cannot find the words or thoughts for prayer.
But as the tears and sobs came tonight I was reminded that when I don't know how to pray the Spirit and Jesus, my Jesus, pray for me. What a thought! What comfort to my breaking heart!
Also, on the way to work today I looked up in the sky to see a bald eagle flying in the sky (or at least from what I could tell it was a bald eagle).
I watched as I drove and came closer to it.
Soon it was flying right above my car, with me! I could see it glide with such grace and majesty.
As I watched I could feel God tugging at my heart, whispering to me to let go, to trust, to love Him and Him alone!
Tears formed in my eyes as my heart ached ... with pain at letting go and longing to love my Jesus and my Master as I ought!
The Lord has been so faithful, so gracious, so good, and I still fight and struggle. ..."
"... I'm having great difficulty with surrendering to the Lord the things for which He asks.
So much so that all I do is cry. I cannot find the words or thoughts for prayer.
But as the tears and sobs came tonight I was reminded that when I don't know how to pray the Spirit and Jesus, my Jesus, pray for me. What a thought! What comfort to my breaking heart!
Also, on the way to work today I looked up in the sky to see a bald eagle flying in the sky (or at least from what I could tell it was a bald eagle).
I watched as I drove and came closer to it.
Soon it was flying right above my car, with me! I could see it glide with such grace and majesty.
As I watched I could feel God tugging at my heart, whispering to me to let go, to trust, to love Him and Him alone!
Tears formed in my eyes as my heart ached ... with pain at letting go and longing to love my Jesus and my Master as I ought!
The Lord has been so faithful, so gracious, so good, and I still fight and struggle. ..."